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Truth Is Not Anyone's Business


"She gave me what I wanted. 
I left." 
Writing these lines the young poet like millions before him, realises, truth is not his business.

(Google could not tell me who wrote this. So till someone enlightens me, it's by Anon.)

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I'm Alive (not the Celine Dion song)


Did you know A. R. Rahman still makes awesome music? I guess you did but I accepted the fact only after his recent Unplugged appearance. And the song to bowl me over the most was the one song whose lyrics made the least sense to me. ‘Nenjukulle’ from a Mani Ratnam film called ‘Kadal’, made awesome-r in this avatar. Rahman + Mani Ratnam always meant greatness. A given fact.



The semester ending exam is coming closer and closer and the inherent need to procrastinate becomes more and more powerful. Fuck studies, you read Mary Wollstonecraft and Vivienne Jones the night before, skip through Tagore’s view on nationalism and make up words supposedly said by Marx and you’re okay. (NO EVIL BRAIN, YOU’RE NOT OKAY.)

Now that I’ve a kind of an okay camera and live in a very photo-friendly city, I’ve been taking fewer and fewer photos. And I’ve been getting drunk and stoned more often. Yay. I’ve also been writing less. This is not what I’d envisioned about coming to Delhi to study Literature, apart from the getting drunk and stoned part which I like a lot, thankyouverymuchbye.

I’ve been meeting too many awesome people since coming to the capital and now I feel my anti-social self trying to make its quota of presence felt. I’ve realised that people and places’re inherently connected. When you leave a place behind and go habituate yourself in some other city, however grudgingly at first, you also leave behind a certain amount of your past and future with the people who made up the old place for you. Something silently changes, and you can still be best of friends but the mechanism is no longer the same.

I’m unable to make myself finish even one of the many stories I’d started while my classmates seem to write newer and better stuff every week. And randomly, smoking up in the Ridge is not a safe option. Police will come and ask you for baksheesh and go after making your already light student scheme wallet lighter.

When I read whatever I’ve written thus far, I see how all-over-the-place my thoughts’re, something I’ve noticed in my answers to Lit questions too. I don’t wait to elaborate on anything and go on to the next thing leaving my mind. A professor recently marked this as my ‘lack of articulation’. I say it is ADD. Which brings me to Marx, because the professor was then going through my answer to a Marx related question. You know how hard his writings’re? The footnotes provided’re actually longer than the text itself. And then there’re the laal selamis who name themselves ‘Marxist’ without even reading anything about or by him other than his Wiki page entry.

You can get dis-oriented by drinking a lot of cough syrup and this is something I’m experiencing right now. But this is different to the kind of disorientation you feel after drinking alcohol or after smoking up. One half you feel clearer about things than you’ve ever been and one half you feel that life is one big budgeted Inception. And this round of highness was not solicited. I got cough and a little cold and drank a little too much of the bittersweetsour liquid. Not a good experience.

I guess I started this blog more as a memoir of things that happen in my life so that years down the line, I could come back to these words and know how much things’ve changed for me. Others’ve such amazing blogs that I envy, but those are so impersonal, alike to being a painted actor acting for an audience. One of the only personal-ish blogs that I liked reading and was regularly updated was VK’s, but she has gone underground with her blog. Another that I liked is never updated these days.

I guess I write to remember. Too many days’ve gone by and I’ve put down nothing here. I fear I’ll forget things, I who remember everything. So for the future self, all this rambling is the product of a bottle of cough syrup, the procrastination caused by the approaching exam and the selfish need to remember memories. Today (or night) is the Choti Diwali, Parry’s birthday and a day off college. The neighbourhood kids’re burning down the city and after missing Durga Pujo back home, missing Kali Pujo is no big deal. Cheerio.

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Update: Free concert, DU and theatre


I might’ve been dead all this while. If one were to judge by the frequency of my posts, then I ceased to exist long back.

I suppose moving to any new city’d include a bit of getting depressed and that’s what the last post was all about. When I moved to Guwahati for a year, I still was in depression, albeit for a really short time. Maybe that was because I went there with 3 other friends from the pind and we pretty much spent most of our time haunting the spaces around each other. Or maybe my pumped out expectations made the move to Delhi a bit more depressing at the starting. With the fading summer, the depression is going away too.

At the starting of this year, which seems a lifetime away now, two very different free concerts happened; Anoushka Shankar and The Orphan Land. The thing with free (good) concerts is exactly the same as finding money inside pockets you’ve not washed for months. A month back, The YP Foundation celebrated their 10th anniversary and The Raghu Dixit Project was called in to provide it with the befitting finale. Supposedly Them Clones performed the night before TRDP’s concert, which I missed because of my ignorance of them playing there, thank you. If the pre-concert shared joint with the room mate and the random autowallah and the architecture of the India Habitat Centre were not things awesome enough, then the sudden meeting with Raghu Dixit and the free plate of Buffalo Chicken Wings at the All-American Diner certainly were. Yes, we were hungry and broke enough to accept the wings from the casually-rich-laid-back-guy sitting on the stool beside us. If you’re reading this, thank you random kind hearted, much deep pocketed bearded person. Also I failed to recognise Shankar Tucker in the diner, which is a shame considering the number of hours spent on his Youtube videos. About the diner, it was so sexy but so expensive that I won't be visiting it again.

Raghu Dixit is one class act and more definitely than not one of the most iconic figures in the country’s Indie music scene. The way he interacts with the audience, mashAllah. Also that was their first concert in India after a string of concerts in the videsh, so we got to hear a lot of songs from their second album the first in all of India. Yay, bitches.

Now something about The YP Foundation. They’re the country’s biggest youth based Non-profit organisation and they’ve done hundreds of projects throughout India. Started in 2002 after the Gujarat riots landed up the then 17 year old founder in a state both helpless and confused, it has now become one of the most active youth fronts in India. The people involved with YP’re the more awesome persons of NCR and they sure know how to party hard after working their asses off. Also, all of their meetings seem to happen in the hep areas of the likes of Hauz Khas and Khan Market and yes, that surely earned them many brownie points from me (yep, very shallow of me).

The bad, bad thing about working for YP is the military-like time commitment. The volunteership seemed designed for people from or around Delhi only. Which, honestly, is needed for the training for the roles of peer mentors, but isn’t a 11 month commitment a bit too much when the volunteer base is 99.99% college students, all of whom seem to be from Delhi University, and you’ve to figure in days off for exams, pre-exam preparations, post-exam hangovers, trips back home (for out-station students, hint: me)? Even though I’d’ve loved to work with YP in general and their ‘Know Your Body, Know Your Right’ campaign in particular, all my prior commitments and future engagements (Merlin, I talk like a DU Angrezi teacher) would’ve made it impossible. (I hope someone from YP googles ‘YP Foundation’ and reads this.)

Khan Market and Hauz Khas, the merry ground of all people rich and happening in Delhi, ARE SO FUCKING AWESOME THAT I’VE TO TALK WITH CAPS LOCK ON. While Hauz Khas seems more young and ‘rebellious’, with its dingy lanes filled with designer boutiques and graphiti, Khan Market seems more ‘mature’ with all the re-re-refined elegance. While dining out in Haus Khaz is still an attainable exercise (non-sponsored recco: Thadi), Khan Market has an invisible ‘only for the Tatas and Birlas’ tag everywhere. Which, of course, did not stop me from emptying my wallet over goodies at L‘Opera Patisserie. Macaroons, hello. Bread pudding, hello. College Fund, bye.

The other place which seemed interesting was Majnu ka Tila, which I somehow always twist to ‘Manju ka Lila’, which is where I had my first bite of beef. I and my constant companion in crime in Delhi, Monsoon Chronicler, got over excited and ordered everything with beef in it. And butter tea, for Majnu ka Tila is a proper Tibetan settlement, complete with the beautiful prayer flags and Tibetan markets and board signs and everything. Let it suffice with the sentence that I did not like it. As for the beef itself, it was yummy but over rated. Mutton is a zillion times better. The record stands as below:
Mutton>Beef>Chicken>Fish
The ‘illegal’ tribes of meat shall remain undisclosed.

The best thing about coming to Delhi University has been the societies and all the frequent talks that keep on happening in the different colleges. The Literary Society; Grubstreet, The Film Society, The Gender Forum; Parivartan. These’re the ones I associate with as of yet. The Fresher Talent Show and the short film we’re making for that keeps one busy the whole day long. The Film Society’s focusing on Iranian cinema as of now and the Gender Forum is one kick ass place. The Amazing Gautam-Bhan Man gave a great talk on Queer Politics in Ramjas, which has turned out to be my second college in North Campus, what with my French classes and Monsoon Chronicler studying there. D School and Law Fac have become the best place to argue with Chronicler over the most mundane things with a glass of iced tea in hand. And for most days, my breakfast and lunch becomes the one 30 rupai wali Snickers. And the Daryaganj Sunday Book Bazaar the new paradise (though not so in the first few minutes of getting drenched in the heavy rains and walking in road-meets-drain waters). Imagine buying gorgeous, vintage, hard bound editions of Hugo for Rs 30! Aiyo! 

DU had its elections recently and man, it had all the anticipated rowdy North Campus political gundagardi. Smashed buses, bandhs, students being forced to vacate the college, booze for votes for hostellers (discriminating), disrupted classes, gang fights, girl getting molested. All of the drama. Even though 'Dil, Dosti Etc' was set in the DU political sphere, for me, the student politics in 'Gulaal' was a better representative.

Anyway, the University Delhi Ibsen Festival is going on right now and I got to see three plays out of the five; Lady From The Sea - The School of Art & Aesthetics, JNU, Jai Jawan Party - Ramjas, An Enemy of The People - St. Stephens. While I loved the first two, I found the Stephens play to be very disengaging. The lighting was fabulous, as were the video clips they used. And few of the actors, especially the guy who played the drunkard who appeared in between scenes every now and then, were very impressing too. But as a whole, the play fell flat.

The  plays were so differently adapted that it's difficult to say, strictly on the basis of the plays, that they were by the same playwright. I guess it says both of the complexities of Ibsen's plays and the drama societies. While JNU's adaptation of 'Lady From The Sea', my favourite of the three, was aesthetically the most impressive, and the background score and the way that it was used rolled the dice in their favour early on. The costumes, the lighting, the props, the ending scene. While all of the actors got their nuances right, the one who played Ellida was the show stealer. The way she portrayed Ellida's anguish, her, apparently, loosing her mind, her dilemma was simply superb. The actress playing Bolette was another stunner. And the later use of Tamil and Meitei was rather interesting. This one was pure poetry.

'Jai Jawan Party', Ramjas' adaptation of 'The League of Youth', was as colloquial as 'Lady From The Sea' was 'classical'. The actors interchanged their roles at each new scene and the way to know which actor was playing which character was the characterisation and the costumes. The way the costumes were pinned up at the back of the stage and the actors changing clothes on stage with the lights dimmed down, was rather interesting. The play was great and the actors commendable. And after The Players, I see Shunya as the best DramSoc in DU.

Also, thank you Delhi for providing my eyes with the eye candies that you seemed to've in store in galore.


New obsession: Peekaboo from Karsh Kale's episode of Coke Studio at MTV season 2.













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Peace and Loneliness in The City


Peace is in the teachers’ words, in the few textbooks and the bright laptop screen. Peace is in the only two friends in this city of millions. Peace is in closing your eyes and going to the land of your memories and faces dear to you. The pervading feeling is of loneliness and the sense of failing somewhere in making new companions. Your friends from back home tell you that it has been only a couple of days, that settling in a place takes time. But your head doesn’t listen to it. You see your seniors with their friends and you think how much time will it take for me to get friends like that here? You see your batchmates tumbling along, probably feeling the same way, but it bears no balm to you. You remember your old friends, the ones you made in the kindergarten, the ones you made in your first school and the ones you made in the school that really became your own. That only pushes you back into more depression. Texts, calls, mails, chats. Minutes of that lost feeling and hours of groans. You’re told that the first year is the hardest, that the fun begins the next year. But your brain is already drowned under the bio-chemical responsible for lonesomeness.

Peace is relative.
Peace is retail therapy.

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Books of Exile: Five People You Meet in Heaven - Mitch Albom


Five People You Meet in Heaven - Mitch Albom



The book starts with an ending; Eddie, the protagonist is going to die and the reader is taken along Eddie’s last hour as he goes on doing what he did for the last significant portion of his life, working maintenance in the Ruby Pier amusement park. It is also his 83rd birthday. Eddie is popular amongst the children, they like his non assuming self, while he evidently dislikes the ones who’d crossed the threshold of teenage, they gave him headaches. It is when a cart comes loose from a ride and is about to crash into a little girl, does Eddie’s end seem immediate. He tries pushing the girl away from the coming end and gets killed himself. And here ends the first chapter.


Eddie, as is evident from the title, goes to heaven and then meets five people, in five very different places, whose lives intersect with his in ways different from eachother. To reveal the persons and the different settings would be taking away of a lot of the joy of reading the book. Now, a lot of people've found happiness in annoying the heaven out of me by planning landmines of spoilers in the past (yes, I meant you. And you. And you.). But I'd be the better man and let it be. The book excels in what it seeks to do, which is tugging at the heart strings and making you cry. It is not of the tribe of Nickolas Sparks but something more bittersweet. Almost makes you wish that heaven were real, along with Santa Claus and angels and God... I digress.


What I loved the most was the part non-linear narrative. The independent accounts of his other, significant birthdays from the past and the memories awakened by the different people he meets in heaven. To sum up the book in two words, the book was 'heartfelt-ly pleasant'. It's a book which one could finish in one sitting, thanks to its size and content, but still would go back every now and then for some, let me say it, corny sweetness. My copy was bought from a second hand bookshop and it's previous owner left a lot of scribbling and underlining in the book. Now, I'm not the one for abuse to books, but it's always nice to find some humanising relics of previous owners in a thrifted book. The book's filled with thoughts inspired by the book. I don't get why someone'd sell a book so personal, but I'm happy he did (yes, I'm sure it was a he). The author employs no over dramatication, which'd've been very easy to fall into. The book tells you how everything is related and how all the different stories in the world're really just one long story. How one affects the other. I always wanted to read 'Tuesdays With Morrie', the writer's other book, and now I want to read it even more.


Maybe someday I'd find it in another secondhand bookshop with similar notes in the same handwriting and then, I can pretend to be in a Mitch Albom book myself.


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I had this saved up for long and thought I'd publish this and get it over with. This is the official end of the 'Books of Exile' series. So many books were not reviewed and only my own lazy-assed-ness is to be blamed. The 'Books of Exile' series was also supposed to record my introduction to two of the greatest writers ever; Albert Camus and George Orwell. But A-L-A-S.
Expect random reviews from time to time though.